My second crush

Sunday, 27 May,2007



In end years 2004, after SPM examination I had knew my brother friends. While, my brother study at UITM Shah Alam. His friends in same class with my brother in course Electronic Engineer. His friend name is Ahmad Dzarfan bin Mohd Zamri. He name age with my brother in 22 years old on that years. At the first, I hate he came my house and every days his came and spending time idly with my brother.

After two month and he always came my house and I always make he drinks and open door for his suddenly I like him. When I see his face nearly, his face too much handsome and his face same with my favorite artist, Asyraff Sinclair. That time, I just like dreaming that I had met my favorite artist that I fan his very much. At the first, my eyes can move and my all body is stiffer. But, when my brother come front of me and he wake me up of my dream, and my brother command to me to make for his drinks. I hate this, every days his friend came my brother command to me to make it drinks or cooks something for his.

My brother doesn’t know that I had crush with Ahmad Dzarfan. One day, my brother looks my face is change red while his friends try to talk with me. My brother too eager with me and my brother face change. My brother commands me to go my bedroom and he command to me to sleep. I will go along what have my brother give me a command and I will do when he too eager of me. I’m afraid to looks my brother face while he eager, much scary.

One day, I had stolen his friend’s telephone number from my brother his phone. After I get it, I call at night and do a five miscalled. In the morning, his friends call me but I don’t answer it. Because of too scare and I don’t want to answer it. After 2 hours, I call his back and tell everything, but I don’t tell about my feeling on him. We talk too long and he promises to me that he will not tell to my brother. But, he lied to me he told my brother and my brother got anger on me. I’m too afraid, but I also lied to my brother that I don’t call his friends. I hope my brother trust me, but he doubt to me.

After that, my brother doesn’t meet with his friend because his friends apply to further study at KYPM (KPTM) at Cheras on the first years 2005. Before he goes to study he had call my brother and he send his regard to all my family and also to me. I’m glad to hear it and he was happy study at there. But, after one year he calls my brother and tells my brother that he had a girlfriend. I heard that and I’m too disappointed and frustration. Now, I let my feeling on his and assume his just like an admirer and nothing feeling on him anymore. Now, he is my friend on friendster.